Fuck. My. Life.

Because my Myspace blog is being stupid...I'm posting these here!! This first one just had to be posted somewhere, no matter what, because I find it absolutely hilarious!! :)

You Are FAIL

You love the internet, but it sometimes gets on your nerves. How can so much of humanity be so stupid? Wait, you don't even want to know. While there are some good aspects to being online, you can't help but notice there's so much fail. You liked the internet so much more in the good old days... before all the idiots found out about it!

( More! )

Because I'm bored at work and it's only 10:04 AM as I'm typing this, I thought I'd post a little Twilight quiz thingy...


Take the Quiz and Share Your Results!

You are intelligent, outgoing & stylish. A true girly girl, you love shopping & makeovers.
Although you are a generous friend, you can be coy, tricky & very persuasive in order to
get your way. You are known to zone out occasionally during conversations, but your
friends forgive you because you are understanding, supportive & know how to throw one
heck of a party!

Wow. Alice looks...kinda creepy in that picture!!

I'm in a Dawson's Creek kind-of mood today, so here are some quiz thingies from The N that I took...Go to the site and take them too and post your results in a comment!! :)

( I don't want to wait for our lives to be over... )

I had a weird dream last night/this morning. I dreamt that my dad was the 5th member of The Beatles and we had to go to some strange reunion picnic and George and Paul were there with their families...Dhani Harrison was there...I love him...Anyway, there really was no point to the whole thing. But obviously George was still alive and Paul was still with Heather Mills and their daughter (Beatrice?) was there and she was bugging the hell out of me. I was telling Erin about this dream and she was like "what do you think it means?" and I said "that I hate Paul McCartney's daughter as much as I hate him?" stupid, I know, haha. And then it turned into this weird thing where I was at one of those Old Timey photo places, you know, the ones with the costumes and the weird backdrops. And then I was making out with Adam Sandler. I think drinking Chamomile tea with honey before bed is fucking with my mind, haha. And I totally said 'weird' too much in all of that. Okay, so it was just like 3 times, but 3 times is enough.

Anyway, I've been thinking that I might take piano lessons in the fall. I've been getting this urge to make music, but since my fingers are too fat and short for the guitar, I'll try my hand at playing the piano. I think, since my dad plays the keyboards, it'll come more naturally to me. And also I've really been getting more into piano-driven rock, so I think it'll work out better for me.

There's a reason though why I want to take up the piano all of a sudden. I keep mentioning the forture teller I saw the other day, and here's another thing he said: he told me I'm meant to use my voice. Not only do I need to use it to speak up for myself, I need to use it to sing. That's what he said. I'm meant to sing. I told him I'm not that great though, haha. But anyway, yesterday when I was walking into work, I thought of a name I'd perform under, if it ever came to that, and then last night as I was driving home from work, I was listening to an old Blink 182 song and thought it would be amazing if played on the piano and slowed down a bit. So after I get home from work and from Tim's tonight, I intend on grabbing one of my dad's keyboards and figuring it out by myself. It won't be so hard. When I was like 10 I was able to figure out how to play Janet Jackson's "Again." So maybe I wasn't 10, but I was around that age. And of course, I couldn't play it with all the chords and stuff, but I got the basics down. So anyway, I'll let you guess which Blink 182 song I'm thinking of! :)

And I'm also pissed right now cause I just found out that the only way you can use GarageBand is if you have a Mac. What the hell? Guess I'll just have to save up like $1,300 so I can buy a freakin' MacBook. I mean, I've wanted one and all, but I never actually had a reason to want one. And now I do. And that kind of pisses me off. Probably because without a reason I couldn't justify buying one. Oh well, haha.

I guess I don't have much else to add for today...except that I don't want to go to Tim's tonight since it feels like it's Friday since I don't have to work tomorrow, but I skipped out on training on Tuesday because I was sick so I need to go tonight. I know I'll feel better after I go and just get it done...but just the thought of that damn calorie burning program on the treadmill...oh god...I don't think I can do it tonight. Thank god that's usually the first thing I do. I'd prefer to not do that though. I'd rather be on the elliptical for twice as long, just to avoid the treadmill. Oh well. I really should stop bitching about it because the longer that goes on, the less I'm gonna want to go tonight. And I need to. I have to.

Something else I need and have to do is stop writing and get some work done. So in the event that I have nothing to post tonight or tomorrow, I hope everyone has a safe and happy fourth of July!! :)

PS - Erin just told me that she's getting a MacBook and that it's in the mail now...ugh. I'm so jealous!! haha

Okay, so I guess I didn't steal this from Crystal since she tagged me and all for this, and I still don't understand what that means, but whatev, haha.

( Survey! )

Okay, I know I just posted an entry and whatnot, but I came across these quizzes and I had to take them and then post them...so check them out! And perhaps take the quizzes then and post your results in a comment for me!!

( My inner New Yorker should live in... )
( My life is rated... )
( What my drug personality is like... )
( Am I an Easy Girl? )
( Where I'll find my dream guy... )
( My celebrity style twin is... )
( What does Jessica mean? )
( My Celtic horoscope says... )
( My 'inner eye color' is... )

Okay, I think I'll stop there!! haha

I don't feel like doing much at work today (even though I know I need to!) so I figured I'd try to do a quick 15 minute update on my life, as I had promised the other night before I fell asleep while reading that Carlin book.

First of all, the book wasn't boring, I was just cold so I put my sweats on and a hoodie and got under the covers of my bed, and then one thing led to another and I ended up falling asleep because I was so comfortable. And I was also tired as hell, so that explains that. Napalm and Silly Putty is actually a very funny book...at least what I've read of it so far.

But anyway, back to the updates...let's see...I have everything to talk about from November 13(?) to today. Well, I started working at the Archives and Records Center of the PA House of Representatives as an oral historian, or rather, an oral history researcher, cause I don't actually do the interviews, I just research so I don't know if it's fair to call me an "oral historian" but whatever. So basically what I do here, or what I'm supposed to do, is look up biographical information, legislative information, review the floor journals, look through newspaper articles and newsletters to get enough information about each Member to compile a list of questions which we will use to interview the Members, if they consent. Sometimes they don't so all of our research is in vain. Which sucks. Anyway, everyone I work with is great, I can't believe I get along with everyone so well. The only thing that really sucks is that we're split into two offices. So I don't get to interact with most of my co-workers all that much. So that leads me to slack off a lot because nobody is around to see that I'm not actually researching or anything. And then in January, the office I was in also got occupied by guys from the storeroom since they were getting a new room and it had to be remodeled and everything, so all they ever did was sleep at their desk or play games all day long. It was so distracting and unfortunately it got me in the habit of doing very similar things. I mean, I don't sleep or play games, but I don't get much work done. It's so hard to get things done here though. It's so boring! I've wanted to apply for other jobs but I always stop myself from doing it because I'm so behind with everything! I don't want to be offered another job adn then have to bust my ass to get 4 months of work done in 2 weeks! Or have my bosses ask me why I didn't have so many Representatives researched...it would just be a mess, and I don't need that kind of drama right now! So, there isn't really a whole lot else to say about work. It is what it is.

Onto my personal life now...I guess. Actually, there isn't a whole lot going on there! Basically, it comes down to this: someone kind of liked me, I didn't like him. I had a miniscule crush on one of the legislative fellows, but only because he is British. That was basically it there. Right now, I kind of like someone, but I can't decide if it would be a good idea to go for it. I saw a fortune teller again this past weekend and he told me that he was confident that I'd meet who I will eventually marry by January. It's kind of comforting to know that I don't already know this person. Oh, but he did also say that I'm kind of hung up on someone I had a relationship with already, and that person will re-enter my life and we will be in a relationship again. But it won't be as intimate. Whatever that means. I think I know who this guy was talking about. C, maybe?

Um...okay, I have 2 minutes, and I'm probably wasting time by stating that, but I don't think there's much else I need to say! There really hasn't been much excitement going on in my life. Oh! I went to NYC in April with Amy and it was fabulous!! :) And then in the beginning of June I went to Rehoboth with Stacey & Mark, Andy, Ryan, Beekler, and Bri, and that was a fun time too! I just wish we didn't have to leave!! Being at the beach was so nice! Except that the Atlantic Ocean was a fucking icebox!! The water was so cold that I was getting numb from it! And then the waves were pretty wicked too. I still have some scars from my failed attempts at getting out of the water and being pounded by more waves, haha.

Alright, I'll try to write more soon if I can think of anything exciting that's happened! Maybe I'll write something about my concert experiences so far this year!!

I seriously cannot believe that I haven't posted a decent entry here since the beginning of November! That's almost...eight months! Eight months! That's ridiculous!! I really have no excuse for the lack of updates, except that working full-time takes so much out of me, even if all I'm doing is sitting at a computer all day and researching. I guess after doing that for 7.5 hours a day, the last thing I want to do when I get home is sit at another computer.

Okay, now I've gone and gotten myself totally distracted, and I barely wrote a paragraph. So I'm gonna have to finish this later so I can get myself undistracted by reading Napalm and Silly Putty by George Carlin. I'm still in complete shock that he's gone...It just doesn't seem right.

Anyway, I'll try to get my thoughts in order and finish writing about what's been going on for the past eight months later on tonight!

I've stolen these from Crystal because I too am bored and yet I don't have the patience to write out a full entry...so...yeah.

( Books and Stuff )

Guess who the newest oral historian is at the House of Representatives!! :)

My parents have decided to give me their bedroom so I can finally have a bigger bed and all that. They're going to move up into the attic (whenever it gets done!). So now I have to choose some paint colors!! I know I'll have one hell of a time getting rid of the stupid dark green they have painted all around the windows and on the molding. I want that to be white, haha. But as for the wall colors, I'm kinda stuck between these two right now. Which do you think I should paint my walls?? Oh!! And behind the cut are also a few pictures of the artwork I want up on my walls!!

( Paint!! And posters!! )

Wow. So what do you guys think of my journal makeover? After days or weeks of searching for a new layout and finding nothing even remotely close to what I wanted, I finally decided to take matters into my own hands. I first made the header all by myself! I know it's not really fancy or anything but I'm a bit of a photoshop virgin, so I took it easy. Just put one texture on it and then the text from the song "Across the Universe." Pretty simple, actually. Then I just played around with the layouts that LJ already had until I had all the colors perfect...and of course, I did put a few overrides in there! I had to! Otherwise, I'd still be working on some way to make this thing look better by playing around with colors and fonts.

But I'm satisfied with how this turned out. I did have a little trouble for a while getting my header to fit the way I wanted. I had to go into photoshop several times to play around with the image size. You should see how many of these headers are uploaded into photobucket! I seriously had at least 5 in there!

In other news, I have gotten a part-time job. It's at the Barnes & Noble in Camp Hill. I'll start on Monday...well, I'll have my orientation then. So, that's something to look forward to. Still no news on the House job though. But it's only been a week...

Anyway, my neck is killing me after all of this journal-making. Please tell me what you think of my new "Across the Universe"-inspired layout!!!!!

Oh, and Jen, I WILL call you back soon!!!! I've just been kinda busy! :)

J.K. Rowling Outs Hogwarts Character
By HILLEL ITALIE, AP
Sat Oct 20, 12:37 AM EDT

Harry Potter fans, the rumors are true: Albus Dumbledore, master wizard and Headmaster of Hogwarts, is gay. J.K. Rowling, author of the mega-selling fantasy series that ended last summer, outed the beloved character Friday night while appearing before a full house at Carnegie Hall.

After reading briefly from the final book, "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows," she took questions from audience members.

She was asked by one young fan whether Dumbledore finds "true love."

"Dumbledore is gay," the author responded to gasps and applause.

She then explained that Dumbledore was smitten with rival Gellert Grindelwald, whom he defeated long ago in a battle between good and bad wizards. "Falling in love can blind us to an extent," Rowling said of Dumbledore's feelings, adding that Dumbledore was "horribly, terribly let down."

Dumbledore's love, she observed, was his "great tragedy."

"Oh, my god," Rowling concluded with a laugh, "the fan fiction."

Potter readers on fan sites and elsewhere on the Internet have speculated on the sexuality of Dumbledore, noting that he has no close relationship with women and a mysterious, troubled past. And explicit scenes with Dumbledore already have appeared in fan fiction.

Rowling told the audience that while working on the planned sixth Potter film, "Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince," she spotted a reference in the script to a girl who once was of interest to Dumbledore. A note was duly passed to director David Yates, revealing the truth about her character.

Rowling, finishing a brief "Open Book Tour" of the United States, her first tour here since 2000, also said that she regarded her Potter books as a "prolonged argument for tolerance" and urged her fans to "question authority."

Not everyone likes her work, Rowling said, likely referring to Christian groups that have alleged the books promote witchcraft. Her news about Dumbledore, she said, will give them one more reason.

I'm having another quarter-life crisis of sorts...But trust me, this is completely different from the other ones. I've received a bit of information that is incredibly disturbing to me. I know all of you will think I'm just absolutely insane, but this is seriously bothering me. I'm getting older and everybody else seems to be getting younger! It's bad enough that the world is full of Lindsay Lohans and Hilary Duffs, celebrities who are younger than me, but then there are the ones who I would have sworn were older than me...but they're not. And I'm shocked, confused, and just plain upset over it.
( See what I mean... )

Just wanted to post a really quick update!

I have been accepted at Penn State Harrisburg for graduate studies! Yay! I'll be starting classes in January. I've already registered for American Studies 500, Theory and Method, and I forget the other number but it's Gender and Culture. I don't really know what to expect...like what the courseload will be like. Hopefully it won't be too hard! The classes are incredibly small. 20 people can be in each class and there's still 15 seats left in both. 5 people in each class is nerve-racking. Hell, only 20 people per class is bad enough! I had no problem with small classes when I was at HACC, but I enjoyed being able to hide in the bigger classes at PSU. Now in grad school, I won't be able to hide. Small classes will mean that I need to have done all the reading and need to have opinions on it cause I will definately be called upon! Ugh, I am not looking forward to that!

In other news, I have a job interview at the PA House of Representatives next Thursday. I'm super excited about that...I hope it goes well! I really want this job. I'd much rather work in the archives than at Barnes & Noble (who actually haven't even contacted me for a freaking part-time job! Geez!) or Borders (who also have yet to contact me!). In this interview, what I lack in experience and education, I'll have to make up for with...personality, haha. So basically I'm screwed. I wonder how many interviews I'll have to go through before being offered a job...Bankers and Enterprise had 3 interviews. But maybe this will only need one...the woman I'm meeting is the head of the project and is in charge of all the hiring. So maybe I'll only have to go on this one. Hopefully. I'd love it if I could walk in there, give one hell of an interview, then be offered the job at the end. That would be ideal...but not very probable.

Anyway, that's all the news I have. Since I'm bored, I've decided to take a few quizzes, how about taking a look-see!

( Here! )

Wow. It has been quite a few months since I've last updated for you, my dear - but few - readers. So what has been going on in my drama-filled life? Absolutely nothing! While it feels pretty damn good to say that, I have to admit, I'm bored out of my fucking mind! However, I do have some job prospects. I met someone the other night at Penn State Harrisburg's graduate info night who told me about a job in the archives she works at. It's a job as an oral historian, no MA required. Which is...basically a relief to me. But the best part of this job is who I'd be working for. And trust me, this is pretty damn impressive. The House of Representatives. So tomorrow I have to call this girl, Erin, and talk to her about the job. Since my car goes into the garage tomorrow and for the next few days (leaving me stranded! Ugh!), I may need to have Erin send the application to my house, as opposed to me going to the archives and picking one up.

Other than a potential job with the House of Representatives, there is one other bit of exciting news. I'm going back to school. I just applied for grad school at PSU Harrisburg. I'll be a non-degree student in the spring, but I can still take the grad courses I need to get an MA in American Studies. This just gives me a little bit of time to get everything organized. Taking the GRE isn't required but Dr. Ross, the professor who represented the American Studies program told me that it might benefit me. So I'll study for that for a bit, take it, possibly retake it, start classes then get some of the professors to write me recommendations for my grad school application. So then hopefully by the summer I'll officially be a graduate student. American Studies isn't exactly what I imagined studying in grad school, but it's the closest thing that Harrisburg has to history...and PSU Harrisburg is basically the only university in at least a 50 mile radius with any graduate programs. Oh, and the university will be expanding the MA into a Ph.D. program in about 3 years. So if I decide to go for that, then that option is open to me as well.

So that's about all for me with school and work. I'm still struggling with what to do after all of that, and, well, I'll probably end up in NYC. I'm trying to come up with some bullshit thesis about the culture of New York City. I have a few ideas thus far. But you know what? I've decided to let the future where it is. I'll worry about it when I get there. I've been trying to mellow myself out a little more lately. It's really not working, but I'm persisting.

Because I've spent so much time not "blogging," I thought I'd provide a list of my current obsessions; things which have kept me from telling you what has been going on in my life.

( My Obsessions )

To be perfectly honest, I am not enjoying post-graduation life as much as I probably should be. Don't get me wrong, the thought of never having to take another exam or write another 15 page term paper is great, but it's just that suddenly I have been thrust into this world of self-doubt and uncertainty. I know that for the past five years I was supposed to be figuring out what I was going to do at this moment, and for a while, I thought I had it all figured out. But life happens. Things change. You change. And let me tell you, I most certainly changed.

Graduating from college sucks because everybody (and I seriously do mean everybody: your neighbors, parents' coworkers, family, advisors, the clerk at Party City who figured out that you're graduating due to the massive amount of graduation party stuff that you are buying...) asks that one question: What's next? It's not so bad if you actually have something planned, whether you're going to grad school in the fall or you have a job lined up already, but when you don't and you answer "Who knows." to that question, you get that awkward "Oh..." in response. And let me tell you, that "Oh..." sucks. Big time. With me though, it's not exactly like I don't have a plan. I do. Well, sort of. As most of you know, I want to go to NYFA for the year-long screenwriting program. Trust me, I've thought this through. It'll take me at least a year to make enough money to pay for tuition, rent, and other living expenses. I still might have to take a loan out. But whatever. I want to go. I want to do this. If I don't, I fear that I will regret it for the rest of my life. And this isn't one of those, "I wish I had bought that dress because it would have been perfect for this occasion" regrets, this is one hell of a big regret. I'm very much aware that my chances of success after leaving NYFA are very slim. I know this. Afterall, I'm not a complete idiot. But besides throwing away at least $40,000, what would this hurt? I could say I pursued my dream. I would have the experience of living in New York City for a year. I would have met all kinds of wonderful new people. The money is irrelevant. Whether or not I become a successful screenwriter will have no impact on the time I spent at NYFA. Of course I wish for myself that I would become successful, and that I can move out to LA and get a house right on the beach, but I'm still trying to be realistic about all of this.

The other day my neighbor stopped me and asked what I was going to do now that I am a college graduate. When I told her about film school, she laughed. And if that wasn't all, she then asked what I majored in and then proceeded to tell me about her nephew's girlfriend who also majored in history who can't find a good job, because "you can't do anything with that degree." I can't remember a time in my recent history when I have been more offended than I was at that moment. There are all kinds of rude things I could have said in return, but I kept my mouth shut. But I am now more determined than ever to go to film school and make it. Fuck everybody who doesn't think that I can do it because I can.

Maybe those words will haunt me someday, but let's hope that they won't. If I don't go to film school, what are my other options? Stay around here and get a job with the state? I'm not in any way saying that working for the state is a bad thing, I just don't think that it is for me. I know that it's the expected route for me. Work for the state. Get the amazing benefits so I can retire early. Start a family. Okay, fine, whatever. I'm nearly ready to settle down and start a family, but not until I go to Manhattan. If I start a family in a few years, without having gone to film school, I'll probably end up hating them for holding me back because I did what was expected of me, not what I wanted to do.

I should probably wrap this up because I'm getting to the point where everything I type seems redundant. It's not that I'm finished saying what I need to, I've just lost my train of thought. I need to think about this more before really finishing. And besides, I think this blog is long enough for now. I'll probably write more on this in the next few days, especially since my graduation party is on Saturday and I'm sure to get pissed off from everybody asking me that one stupid question.

So.

I saw Rooney last night at the Chameleon Club in Lancaster...same place I saw Joshua Radin at last August. Um...AMAZING! Stupid ass me forgot my camera though. So I had to try to take pics with my cell phone...they didn't turn out so great. But it was great to see my dearest Robert up close (haha). And my god, he is even more gorgeous in person...and charismatic...and just wonderful. Haha, I'm going into fantasyland right now. They didn't have a meet and greet after so I didn't get to meet them...BUT...this is cool...Ned, the drummer of Rooney came up to the over-21 level of the club and was hanging out during the second opening band's set. And Ned was listening to Kingsfoil and to see them, he was leaning over my shoulder! Haha, how awesome is that? And then after that, someone who was standing by my friend Bri left and so Ned stood by her for a while to watch Kingsfoil's set. She didn't really know anything about Rooney so when he moved over by her I whispered to her who he was and she started laughing cause she almost asked him if he knew the name of the second band, cause we couldn't figure it out. Anyway, below is a pic from www.rooney-band.com of Ned and Robert! Not from the Lancaster show though.



Rooney had a great set, mixing some of their older songs from their first cd with new songs from the upcoming album, due out in July. Unfortunately they didn't play one of my favorites by them, "Stay Away." They did an encore but only played one song and it was "Sorry Sorry." Bri really enjoyed that song! Overall, it was a great night. I had a good time making fun of these three little teeny-boppers who were right in front of the stage, all with their red Rooney bags planted on the stage so the band could see them. They had to be sixteen or so. Silly teenagers. And then the rest of the under-21 floor was filled with OC-wannabe's.

I think that might be all I wanted to say about last night. Great, great night. Only things that could have made it better were me remembering to take my camera and then meeting Robert, haha. But I'll try to make those things happen the next time I see Rooney!

In other news, I am a Penn State graduate! Yep, I have graduated college! It's a weird sensation. I have that feeling of "what's next?"; that uncertainty, nervousness, etc. And of course everybody now asks if I have a job lined up or if I'm going to grad school in the fall and the answer to both questions is no. I'm in no rush, really. I do need to work on the job thing though, so I'll have health insurance! Wow, saying that makes me feel old. I have to worry about having health insurance now. What. The. Hell.

Well, I should probably wrap this up...I promise to write more soon and get more detailed about post-Penn State life!!

Here is my latest obsession...


Isn't he beautiful? Hahaha. It's Robert Scwartzman, actor, lead singer of Rooney, and brother of Jason Schwartzman. He's amazing!